so today’s my last day here at BGC.
I’ve finished checking all my mail. for once in my entire life here, my inbox now reads ZERO unread mail. WOOHOO!
sigh, parting is such sweet sorrow. everything’s bitter-sweet. I’m happy to be leaving, finally there is something out there for me that would help me grow, develop both personally and career-wise. I wouldn’t want to be stuck being a recruitment consultant for the rest of my life! so I better get out while I still can, while my degree’s still fresh enough to be entitled those jobs where training is still provided(due to my lack of experience). though pay may suck, but well, money isn’t everything. the money will come eventually.. but what I feel’s most important now’s the experience and things I have to learn. important lifeskills, that’s what my next job will be providing.
and I thank God for it. I thank God that I never have to wait long or look high and low for a job. everytime I asked, He blesses. THANK YOU JESUS! :D without Him I won’t even be able to ace a single interview. it is all Him.
and then I wonder what was my purpose here. what I’ve realised now is not what I’d thought. guess I can never ever read God’s mind. it really seems like I can only know his plan for me on hindsight, and then that makes me confident enough to take the next step, knowing He is always right beside me, before me.
and then again, sweet sorrow. I hate goodbyes. these colleagues, some of them have really grown onto me more than I’ve realised. like Agnes, I was surprised and touched that she cried when Sophia announced my leaving. :/ they all kid about it saying wow those “bonding sessions” we had doing mani/pedi worked! she has never cried when the other consultants left. well, I guess, but I really think its more than that. she sits in front of me during work, so we kinda face each other every day. she always shares her food with me, and then we always go buy lunch together. and all those stuff in between that will make this friendship memorable.
I’m going to miss working with them. all of them.
the time I spent here has taught me so much. taught me how to handle people who don’t seem grateful for this service we provide, taught me how to handle hugeass disappointments, taught me how to keep my cool (still much to be improved though). it also made me realise how different everyone can be, how we all react differently to the same situation.
its 10:12am now, the last few hours here. sigh. in an hour’s time we will be having team lunch. they said it will be a farewell lunch for me. oh man..I’m really really bad at goodbyes. I really really hate goodbyes. :C









